Breast feeding - it might be best but it's not easy

I had my heart set on breast feeding. Breast is best etc, but it is just not always possible.

As I had a section my milk too a few days longer to come in than normal and so whilst in the hospital I was told I had to formula feed my baby.

This was not what I wanted, but I realise that you can't starve a wee toot, so did as I was told.

With the help of three midwives and two breast feeding support workers we still failed to get baby to latch on. This meant that she was getting more and more used to the bottle.

Not one to give up I sought more help when I got home from hospital and was given a loan of a hospital grade expressing machine and so, thankfully, I have been able to give my baby some breast milk before every formula feed.

I had another visit today from breast feeding support worker and it was not what I had hoped for - we couldn't get baby to latch and it was pretty much suggested to stick to expressing and formula feeding.

I am trying to get my head round this and in all honesty I think it probably is for the best. Both me and baby are getting so upset with the feeding process and I don't want to look back on this time as something I did not enjoy, as in general, I am enjoying it hugely.

At least baby is getting breast milk just not in the method I had hoped for.

Training Mummy

Training Mummy is a 30 something mum to two beautiful children - a girl born February 2014 and a boy born in October 2015.


  1. I think this must be one of be most confusing and frustrating things I have heard about in the early months. Breast feeding is so encouraged that new mums feel like they are failures if they can't do it. And then when something happens and makes it impossible or even just really hard, the new mum feels guilty and like a failure. It sounds to me like you have done everything you can to do it the old fashioned way. Your baby is still getting your breast mill through expressing which is fantastic. As someone who wants to breast feed in a few months (but has been warned that may not be the case if this little peanut has some issues that might make it hard) I can imagine the disappointment. But try not to feel bad, you're doing a fantastic job!!!

  2. thanks! It has been heartbreaking but I think this is the best decision for us both as at the moment feeding is a trauma not a fun experience.
    I hope you do manage as Im sure it is such a rewarding thing to do and I hope to manage with baby number 2 when he or she arrives.