Recovering from glandular fever makes me a bad mum

Writing this post is hard. Harder than I thought as it really increases the mummy guilt that we all too often feel about anything and anything. I write this with a heavy heart. Hard to admit it. I am sad. I have two incredible children, easy to look after, hardly complain about anything (expect when hungry or tired) and yet I feel miserable at times.

A few months ago I plucked up the courage to go to the doctor as I had been feeling unwell for such a long time (9 months) and I guessed I was past the pregnancy and post pregnancy hormone changes. It turns out I was right and they diagnosed me with having had Glandular Fever. It explained a lot but now months on I still feel awful and that is starting to impact on how I feel as a mum.



I have no energy. I can sleep 12 hours at night and still feel like I have not slept in weeks. I just want to sit, or snooze, but obviously this is not what the kids want. It feels an effort to play with them. This is where I feel guilty.

I feel a bad mum. I am not rushing across to interact, to play, to jump about. All too often I just do not have the energy to do these things. I have had tonsillitis numerous times in the past month and I just spend my days looking forward to bedtime (mine and the kids). This is not how a mum should be. Why can I not be the good mum that everyone expects me to be?

I do try and go for at least one walk a day so it is not that we are sitting in all day doing nothing and we do have fun but I just feel we should be doing more.

I was told it could be 6 months or more until I felt normal again and I honestly am not sure how much longer I can cope with it. 

Maybe I just need to accept that I might not feel normal for years and get on with it but that is harder said than done sometimes.

Training Mummy

Training Mummy is a 30 something mum to two beautiful children - a girl born February 2014 and a boy born in October 2015.

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  1. You poor thing, GF can be really alow and hard to recover from. It doesn't make you a bad mum though, it makes you human xx

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    1. Thank you for the comment, just feel so guilty that I don't do enough!

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